The other day, I noticed I was stuck in a reoccurring pattern.  It was not my favorite.

So I spent some time in my “underworld” to discover what belief was active and how it was playing out.  I looked to see where it began, how it showed up in my life over the years, and how it served me.  I saw the protective intent in its formation and the limiting hold it had over me in its current form.

By the time I was done looking, I felt kind of muddy and tired.  Like I had grappled with a sea monster who lived hidden beneath the waters. 

I plan to venture into those waters again and again in order to witness what hidden creatures within my psyche have a hold on me so that I can break free.  The practice of going within and under to the murky spaces within may not be so much fun.  It can be downright frightening, disheartening, and sobering.  Yet it is essential if you wish to live in and as the light – as you and I so often claim. 

You want to cultivate an unwavering commitment to explore the beliefs you hold about yourself, others, and how life should be.  

A lifetime of conditioning has created an underground “rule set” which is running your day to day existence.  You have to visit this in order to change it.  As you do, it is vital to remember that you did nothing wrong in creating these influential beliefs.  This is simply the result of growing up human.  And if you are reading these words, then I will assume you are one … a human being.

You have a brilliant capacity for learning, deduction, and creative problem solving.  Simply brilliant.

When you are blind to the fact that much of your subconscious “rule set” was created (brilliantly) by your tiny child mind, you are bound by the limits of a child’s lack of perspective, experience, and understanding.  When you recognize that you have a vast collection of mistaken ideas, habits, and perspectives, you have a choice.  You can hide, blame, or judge yourself (or project this onto others).  Or you become eager to explore the depths in order to “weed” out these younger deductions about your identify, how to navigate life, or understand the complexity of interpersonal relationships. 

You become brave enough to dive into the shadow world of your being.  You become your own hero. 

Cultivating a fearless practice of examining your dark, dusty, and at times at times frightening underworld reveals a vast network of misperception.  Revealing these false ideas formed by your tiny mind is freeing.  Rather than protect by holding them tighter, you risk everything by releasing them with love. And you discover that your beautiful adult self can live more freely without these tiny ideas restricting your every move.